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Sunday, Apr. 20, 2003 - 12:04 a.m. off my hair now. i decided to cook dinner for jody and myself. well, as i am waitng for jody to come over, i hear a knock on my door. i look through the peep hole and it's my friend mike and his new piece of boy flesh. what a dork. jody came right after that and gave me evil glares. then i hear another knock...who was it? DANNY. yeah, i was just as shocked as anyone to see him. he stayed there w/ us drinking his whiskey as his zanex wore off (i hope i spelled that right.) mike and his boy toy left, finally, so it was just danny, me and jody. as danny found out last time, i don't get rid of jody until we've had our hang out time...no matter how much danny may have wanted to get rid of jody, he was mine for the night b/c i don't diss my friends for a piece of ass...that ain't me at all. however, i did invited danny to come w/ us to the bar. so danny did come w/ us to the bar...after we chatted for a while at my place. the bar was lame. evidently, everyone had gone home for easter break. we didn't care. there was still enough people there for us to find something to laugh at. we had fun and we drank two beers...then i kinda got tired. maybe from the lack of sleep the night before. danny had already gotten himself in a game of pool. i told him we were going back to my place and he could come over later. he said he'd be over after he finished his pool game. now, when jody and i got to my place, we did what we always do...we pigged out on leftovers. he's like the perfect girlfriend. he loves shopping, guy watching, telling me i look better than some other girl and totally vegging out in private. i made homemade cheese friends ealier that night w/ mozzerlla, extra sharp cheddar, bacon and scallions and we ate every single piece of it all as we watched vh-1 classics. then i heard a very faint knock. i knew it was danny. he came in and i led him back to my bedroom where jody and i were. after about 10 or 15 minutes, jody left....this starts a new saga. did i know the night was going to turn out like this? hell no. would i have stopped it had i known? i don't know. well, danny and me alone usually = me feeling really good and not being able to leave my bed for a while. nothing from that equation changed at all. danny is a sweetie and he's 39, so he's had lots of experience in keeping women happy and he knows what to do and how to do it to put them in a state of ataraxia. that's where i was....or at least i was on my way there. needless to say, we're making out and having a damn good time at it, as usual. suddenly, ALL clothes disappeared. it was kinda scary b/c i didn't know how it all happened, but i got over it. then he did his special...talent... that would make even the most straight-laced school marm buckle to her knees. then something changed....nothing physical. it was the mood or something. he asked could he tell me his fantasy...i told him sure. that's probably where i would have stopped time, if i had the means to. so danny proceeds to tell me of his fantasy. keeping in mind, this is something totally new to me b/c i have never done the fantasy thing...hell, i've never even had an imaginary friend before. well, did i get one of the biggest shocks of my life. i knew something was going to be funny when he told me the year....he started off w/ 1800, then changed it to 1600. that should have been when i told him no fantasy b/c no black person should ever be involved in any fantasy before the year 1968. you see where i am going w/ this...i know some of you do. well, let's talk about the fantasy itself. i have told you the year, 1600. he was the white 'master'....the slave owner, if you will. and i was...guess who? the slave, right. not just any slave, the kitchen slave. i always thought the house slaves were lightskinned, but who knows. anyway, he proceeds to tell me how i'm supposed to be in the kitchen cooking and he's coming up behind and he puts his arms around me and presses his crotch into my ass. so far not TOO bad. then he starts rubbing on me and telling me to do whatever he says. i didn't know if this was what he wanted me to do or if it was a part of his fantasy. the last thing i totally understood is when he said, 'we're gonna do this and remember, the word is NO.' now, i didn't really understand what he was talking about, but i had a feeling it was getting on the verge of something i didn't understand so that spooked me. now i was a littel tipsy and a little high, so i chalked my 'weird feelings' up to that. but distinctly remembered 'safe word' being used in s&m and that sure as hell sounded like a safe word to me. to continue w/ the fantasy, he told me how he was going to come when i was in the kitchen cooking and, in graphic detail, said all the things he was going to do. i'm not even going to go into the whole thing. let's just say the word 'master' kept popping up in his vocabulary. then it changed to 'mass'ah'. um...wtf? that's what was going through my head. he was also doing things to the lower region of my body that i cannot explain. i swear, i thought i was going to scream if he said 'relax and take a deep breath' one more time. something kept almost hurting me...but i didn't know what was exactly going on. i couldn't see and danny was in his own freaking world. he kept asking me things i've only ever heard in a porn movie. the pain kept growing and growing b/c my body was not prepared for whatever was happening. it went from pleasure to pain to pleasure to pain and on and on...until the pain started outweighing the pleasure. now, remember the word i was supposed to say to make it all stop? 'NO!' yeah, that's right. well, i tried using that word, but to no avail. now matter how hard i tried to make him hear, he was totally in his own world. then i said the one word that will make anyone w/in ear shot stop and totally put all their attention on you. you know the word i'm speaking of...OUCH! that totally brought him back to the present. it was like he had just woken up and didn't know what the hell was going on. that totally scared me...like some weird soap opera had just occured, but i was in it. too freaky. i think he realized that he wigged me out b/c he went to the bathroom and smoked a cigarette outside. no smoking in my apartment, you know. when he came back, he was the old danny. he laid down beside me on the bed and told me to put my head on his chest and that's where i lay for such a long time, playing w/ the hair on his chest and slowly drifting off into lala land.n around 4:00a.m., he said he was going home. i told him he didn't have to...but i'm glad he did. i have a rule...no one spends the night in my bed except for me. i try to keep to it as best as possible, you know. when i got up to walk danny to the door and lock it, i noticed it was a little too hard to walk. i felt like i did when i lost my virginity. danny told me to just lay down b/c i wouldn't feel like walking for a while. no duh! it felt like someone tried to push something the size of a freaking watermelon in me. all i wanted to do after danny left was go to bed....just sleep the sleep of th dead, you know. but no, i couldn't b/c my body was stilly saying ouch. that night was the wildest night i have ever had in my life and i wish to never repeat it. my nether regions are still recovering from that traumatic night. from this entire experience, i learned one very important thing: reality is what i like being in...no fantasy stuff for me. no sir. i'll just stick to regular old fashioned sex. and if danny wanted to make sure that i wasn't going to be messing around w/ any other guy...he surely did a damn fine job of it. i hope this entry is alright. i have been falling asleep the entire time i have been writing in it. that means that i have earned the right to finally get to sleep before 5:00a.m. in the morning. i know i problaby won't get back to diaryland until later on, so i want everyone to have a very happy easter holiday. until later. |
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