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lonely Tuesday, Sept. 10, 2002 - 8:55 a.m. right now, i feel empty. like i'm useless and the smallest little thing could make me cry. i don't want to even be here now....not as in here in this building, but here on this earth. it's just a phase, i know, but the feeling is still there. this feeling....it's like the entire world is around me...but i am stuck in this bubble that i just can't get out of no matter how hard i try to pop it. you see the people around you and you know what some of them are thinking about you, but you can't do anything to defend yourself. so you just hover along, ignoring them and dealing only with the things you can control. but then you start wondering why you are shut off from the rest of the world. like, what did i do to deserve this? everyone has their clique and they're doing their thing....but you just go through the motions, day after day, month after month. there's no spontaneity, no drive anymore. where did it all go? or was there some pathetic illusion that i even had it before? so what's left????? just keep going through the motions....just keep going.....just keep going.....just keep going............

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goodbye to the old and on w/ the new...my precious microwave