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tired and over worked Wednesday, Mar. 13, 2002 - 12:10 p.m. tired is not the word for what i am right now. exhausted can't even describe it. i have been constantly going for the past 2 weeks. when my body is still, my brain is still in constant work mode. and you know what? it all deals with work. i know, i am the person who is always saying separate your job from your life, but now it's getting hard. i guess i mean it like when you hate your job or when you have nothing really exciting to say, only complaining, separate it. but if you like your job and there is something there to constantly keep you going, i guess it's not so bad. i am trying to rationalize it as i type, but in actuality, i have no idea how to. i am in a state of confusion. wanna know why? because there is nothing but numbers going on in my head. numbers and goals. but then again, i am in work mode. when i get home, i am not like this, so i guess it's understandable. there is so much going on in my head that it hurts, i mean seriously hurts. i have had this same headache since friday. i do not understand why. i have never had a headache for this long before. it bothers me. it did die down on 3/11 day, but it didn't go away. i will say that i had certain...things, or rather a certain person to make it go away, but soon after that, it came back. can you imagine waking up everyday for the past 5 days with a headache? it ain't pretty. true, i guess i could do something to make it go away again, but damn, you can't fornicate every single minute of you life. so instead, i sit and suffer. my usual nightly routine won't even make it go away for very long. let's just hope the concert is what makes this headache be gone. i know it's a stress headache, but i can't be at a 311 concert up front like that. my head would split open. but the excitement should kill it. the rest of this week is going to be totally sucky. i have to do my hair before the concert saturday, so i will be up til all hours of the night doing it and then getting up at 6:30a.m. to go to work, and possibly 5:30a.m. to go to the gym. it's a lot of stuff for one person, but you know what they say: what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

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